Quality Time

Just back from the gym and feeling so much better. No more case of bad conscience of overindulging in fatty foods like cheesecake.

Walking on the treadmill, I looked out to sea and thought of uncle Han Eng. My family had spent so many waking hours with him and his wife in this club and, to think that now she's alone. A scary thought! I don't think I could bare to face life all alone. The word 'Quality Time' came to mind. Hmmmmmmmm...........Let me see.

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Thursday, 7th June, 2007

Didn't go to the library today as I had to pick papa and mama up. They were returning from KL after the funeral. As it was already late for lunch, we headed for Karaikudi for some banana leaf rice. I am glad I spent time with mum, and my grandparents as they had been complaining of my recent absence. Spending so much time in the library. Always studying, always having work to get done. As usual, papa had great tales to tell and mama kept correcting him. A typical Sagitarian and Piscean match! Well that was some quality time spent here! =)

Uncle Pierre called to cancel tennis but instead offered to take me to get my tennis racquet and stuff. His adorable little girls came too....Petra and Charmaine.....^^ oh my gosh! I feel so old! We had such a great time; I became 4 years old again???? Hahaha! I laughed so much! xD On the way home we stopped at Maxim for ICE-CREAM! I had my fix and went home feeling sated. =)

I'm soooo missing them right now...Can't wait for Monday! ^^

Guess who?? xD

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Friday, 8th June, 2007

Woke up with phlegm. Oh no! wheezing again? Then I remembered... Oh my gosh! ....the ICE-CREAMS! Better be a good girl and stay home before mum singes my ears. -.-''

Mum suddenly remember that she had a dental appointment and rushed off! This spelled no lunch! *sigh No car! What to do ar?? :S

Remembering my lost bet to my best friend, Darius which was the penalty of buying him lunch, I decided to kill two birds with one stone and called him.

Cut story short....we ended up at Gurney. Darius, had his own agenda too.. He wanted to 'korek' stories. He had read my kecik molek's comments and was damn curious to know who my 'cuci mata' is, who this 'lovely eyes' is.... Tell you what...this guy should forget being a dentist but be an investigative lawyer instead! He is so damn good! >_<>

Anyway, I was saved by my good old Mum who surprised us by joining us for lunch. She soon steered the conversation towards finding Darius a SWEET LITTLE GAL!! Darius was soon given a run down on ANIMA and ANIMOUS... So Darius, NOW you know what to look for hah? I don't mind being your agent! ^^ Hahahahah! Joshua can help me.... I'll ask him! xD Wilson too! ^^

While all this was going on... I was into my sweets stuff again! Chocolate cheesecake which I finally decided to eat! Then, this Darius started talking about gym, weight loss and etc... Ish! Here comes the guilty conscience! -.-''

Anyway, it was a great afternoon! It was a good quality time spent with a best friend! ^^ The next will be.....LoLz! It;s a long list! :S

That's how I ended up at the gym... =)

Gay Acts??

Recently, or would I say I have observed that the craze at the moment... among almost all of the guys in my class loves to play the 'gay act'. They are basically 'bujangs', come to think of it.. :S Why? Could it be a tactic to try to get rid of the girl who happens to maybe like them????.............. I wonder. LoLz.

Anyway, this is what happened to a best friend of mine who also loves to carry out this act. Well, to get rid of the girls chasing after him, of course! Haha! Well, we play a little game and this time I must say, that his play acting went a little over board and it smacked him in the face. xD The game is to try to convince me that he is/was GAY but all in vain. Why?? It's because if I, who am closed to him, can be convinced, then other girls in this world will be CONVINCED too! .........sheesh....

On the Friday that past, I attended the Member's Night at PSC.. Thank goodness it turned out to be fun, fun, fun! as I had expected it to be a boring sit-down dinner. ^^;;

Cut to the chase, he surprised me in attending too. He had been drinking quite a bit by the time we met and so, needed to go to the loo.

As he was walking towards the single cubicle washrooms near the games room area, I spoke loudly at him to 'go straight' knowing full well that it would lead him right into the Ladies..........Muahaha! xD Shucks! he didn't fall for it though. Haha!

Giving me a look of 'I'll get you!', he turned left and turned the door knob. I noticed that he became very, very still, muttered something, gently closed the door and walked back in my direction. He had this shocked look on his face. Confused I presumed.


Nessa: 'Didn't you badly need to go ...??' -.-''

Friend: *interrupted ' You know ar...Nessa.. This now when I opened the door, I ..ar....saw 3 guys inside!'

Nessa: *raise eyebrows..????????? 'You're drunk?'

Friend: 'No..no...no..wait!

Nessa: ????? (Gee, this sounded real)

Friend: They all looked at me lar! So I said, "Sorry" and closed the door. But......

Nessa: ????????????????? What?

Friend: One guy asked me whether I WANTED TO JOIN THEM!!!!! :S

Nessa: *smiles............sniggers...........giggles..........bursts of laughing!

Friend: -.-''

Nessa: 'Why didn't you join them??'

Friend: 'Siao ar!'

Nessa: 'You're so NOT gay!'

Friend: 'I am~'

Nessa: 'Right....'

Overall, he WAS/IS NOT gay! Sorry, this is pure solid proof my dear friend!

This was really an ultimate test for him...and any guy who faces this kind of situation. For, if he is REALLY GAY, he would happily, gladly have squeaked with delight and entered the toilet without a moment's hesitation. Also, he would have forgotten his best friend (ME) outside...-.-''

I kept telling this eligible bachelor friend of mine that there are so many girls who know him and would willingly be their beau if he only give them a chance. hahaha! But no, he got to do his way...would not elaborate here. Typically Male! I think we should be what God makes us to be.

I wonder, any ideas what they might be doing?? ^^ Better not wonder and guess...

You know this reminds me of the little boy who cried Wolf. I think you should try another tactic my dear friend if you still want to stay single and unattached. As it is, I remember when growing up, my older uncles and cousins were more into careers, of course, and being MACHO, STUD etc. but not gay. Oh well, maybe we are a different breed, a different generation. Poor girls!

Life, Brothers and Trains

As I'm a survivor of fracternal twins, I spend my early teenage years longing for my long lost brother. I even composed a fictional story of a brother and sister relationship for one of my school projects, though it was not chosen as it would have been too emotional my classmates commented. It's substance lies more in the emotions within. Anyway, cut story short, this longing within led to godbrothers being a taboo thing for me. Having put all that behind me, now I find myself collecting brotherly -like friends again! What am I doing?? :S *Sigh, sometimes I wonder whether I will ever learn.... but they really are friends with whom I enjoy company with, nothing more.

Lately, I noticed a noticeable change in one of my 'brothers'. In a way, I'm very concerned for his mental and emotional well-being. His heart has run away with him. It's funny, how the image of myself, sitting at the main train station in Perth City came to my mind at this point.

I remember enjoying and spending a lot of time during my 4 weeks in Perth in Oct. 2006, catching trains. One train came, one train left. And each time one train left the station, I found myself looking at the empty tracks left behind and that sense of emptiness, of loss, of something that left, somehow made an impression on me. Then, I seem to have felt his....emptiness. Just like how it was then. Hhmm.... LIFE! Life is like sitting in the train station??? There are many journeys to take. Each train takes you on a certain journey. On each train, you will meet people. There are many points where the tracks cross one another and meet again at another station. Hmm... an interesting view point of life.

Then I thought of my this 'brother' again. If he continued looking at the empty tracks, he might become mesmerized by them and may never move from that station. In short, become stagnated. But, there;s always HOPE..right? I remember looking at the train schedules displayed on the digital board every now and then. So, if we do look in the right direction, THERE IS ALWAYS A DIRECTION....another train will surely arrive. And when that train arrives, are we Ready? Courageous? Daring? Bold?... to take that step, to alight that train, leave the train station and go another journey, meet other people? Sometimes, we may have to journey alone, that's when it's the hardest. But sometimes, God gives us friends or someone special to journey with us for a moment, season or a lifetime. Or are we going to just wait at the station hoping for that last train that she alighted to return, hopefully again with her. Risky!!!!! I know that we cannot stay, stagnated. We have to move on, we have to change, we have to grow.

We need to move on. We need to make decisions, choices and take new journeys. On each train, you learn and experience new things. Some good, some bad. You have emotions. You have impressions. You have experiences. But that's life, right?

In Perth, I travelled north, south, east and west. I met wonderful people, I tasted glorious food, I was fortunate to be at the Swan Bells when they were chimming as part of a world commemoration of the Battle of Trafalgar Square, I met aborigines blowing their (sorry forgot the word), I tasted wine at the vineyards, I ate free chocolates at the chocolate factory, I visited parks, had barbeques with friends, went shopping, visited a mint factory, had tea in a cafe on the Swan River, I visited the University I wanted to go to then and so, so much more. In short.......there's a whole lot of living out there. Why sit at that train station, all alone? There's so many people out there who want to be loved....give them a chance too.

Life is so short and should be lived and enjoyed. Work is inevitable, of course but I certainly want to live a full life. Today, my heart stopped for a moment and my eyes filled with tears as I remember a dear family friend whose heart stopped beating today at 3.20 pm. There is a silence, a void.............like the empty tracks, only this time the train that left the station made its last journey home!

Here's a song to Uncle Han Eng! Eternal rest grant unto you..may you rest in peace.

When I Get There by Anthony Callea

I wish that I could breathe
A moment just to be here
A chance to take it in
Before I have to leave

So this is how it feels
To walk into a daydream
Can't tell you how my heart sings
To see it all for real

When you do, what you love, it feels amazing
If you do what you love, you can do anything at all

I always said when I get there
I'll change the world, I'll take more care
I'll touch the sky, be more prepared
When I get there

The road rolls on and on
It twists a while and then returns
Where here turns onto there's long gone
Before we notice

When you do, what you love, it feels amazing
If you do what you love, you can do anything at all

I always said when I get there
I'll change the world, I'll take more care
I'll touch the sky, be more prepared

I packed my bags
I left my room
There's nothing more that I can think to do
Now I need to breathe
I just need to breathe

I always said (Oh yeah, yeah, yeah)when I get there
I'll change the world, (Oh wow)I'll take more care
I'll touch the sky I’ll we do (I’ll touch the sky)

I always said when I get there
I'll change the world, I'll take more care
I'll touch the sky, be more prepared (Yeah yeah)
When I get there